
“Forefront Existential” © C.P. Hickey 2017
“I am, I was, I will…”
I am the first, to consider your death. Considered last breath. Considerate depth.
I am the first, to deny the regret. In spite of your death. Nature’s reset.
I am the first, to weep in my soul. Immersive black hole. Forever, not whole.
I was the last, to feel warmth go cold. Sadness untold. Promises sold.
I was the last, to say goodbye. Tried not to cry. Cried on the inside.
I was the last, to reach for your hand. This new silence stands. Your absence unplanned.
I will be next, to reach that shore. Ominous door. Never before.
I will be next, to cease to exist. No point to resist. Death’s lasting kiss.
I will be next, to join the great void. No way to avoid. My essence destroyed.
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Welcome to my effort. Yes, as a great procrastinator, it requires great effort to stay focused on something productive that matters to me. I’ll find any old excuse to traipse from project to project, and I rarely end up at the place I started. I find this maddening, and exhaustive. So it is with high hopes, and a greater grasp of self-awareness, that I embark upon staying the course so to speak.
I enjoy writing. Be it blogs, fiction, poetry, etc. I love the craft and the act of creation, the art in and of itself, for it’s own sake and end. I am happy to be able to do it.
Some stats:
Born: March 1974
Education:
St.Francis de Sales, Charlestown MA
Don Bosco Technical High School, Boston MA
University of Massachusetts at Lowell, Lowell MA
Bunker Hill Community College, Charlestown MA
DePaul University, Chicago, IL
North Virginia Community College, Arlington VA
Harvard Extension School, Cambridge MA
Place of residence: Somewhere in the land of metro Boston. It’s vaguely familiar and becoming home more and more by the day, but when you come from “The Town” all else fails by comparison.
Favorite Color: I’m partial to all forms of blue.
Favorite Author: c’mon! don’t expect me to answer that, there are too many.
I enjoy memories of playing 80’s Atari better than playing any advanced gaming system that exists today.
Some day:
Hope to be recognized for my paper clip collection. As well as my 27 rejected applications to Ringling Bros. and Barnum & Bailiey Clown college.
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This is a really wonderful read! I love it! So very deep and reflective
This is the one. I read this awhile back, and thought it was moving as hell. I am working on my poem of my father’s death, it’s taken time to be able to. I really like this one brother
Looking forward to your take. Enjoy the process.