19th poem on the 19th day pulls me backward in time. My life has been full of requited love for some time. There was once a past version of myself that didn’t believe that. A thank you to my friend Mary Ellen G. for reminding me of how we can always appreciate what we have, by sometimes remembering times when we didn’t possess the proper perspective. Please enjoy my take on this notion…
“Unrequited Love”_originally conceived on 6-21-05
There is somewhere I have not been.
Unknown to me,
but certainly sought.
Endless concrete desire permeates my essence.
My limbs quake at the thought of your touch.
Awoken from one dream,
straight into another.
This cannot be real.
Real doesn’t feel like this.
Uncertainty, follows me closer than my shadow.
Just one time,
allow me to grasp your hand,
In fact, will me to.
Want me to trace our hopes and fears into your palm.
Might I kiss it,
and never be able to kiss a hand so lovely?
I should be committed,
for committing myself to the notion of a high road.
How would you love me?
Would you bend to me?
Would you allow me to drink fully from you?
Could I take a moment to sigh,
and for that moment lose myself in you.
Don’t look at me like that.
You have killed me, and resurrected me with that gaze.
Welcome to my effort. Yes, as a great procrastinator, it requires great effort to stay focused on something productive that matters to me. I’ll find any old excuse to traipse from project to project, and I rarely end up at the place I started. I find this maddening, and exhaustive. So it is with high hopes, and a greater grasp of self-awareness, that I embark upon staying the course so to speak.
I enjoy writing. Be it blogs, fiction, poetry, etc. I love the craft and the act of creation, the art in and of itself, for it’s own sake and end. I am happy to be able to do it.
Born: March 1974
St.Francis de Sales, Charlestown MA
Don Bosco Technical High School, Boston MA
University of Massachusetts at Lowell, Lowell MA
Bunker Hill Community College, Charlestown MA
DePaul University, Chicago, IL
North Virginia Community College, Arlington VA
Harvard Extension School, Cambridge MA
Place of residence: Somewhere in the land of metro Boston. It’s vaguely familiar and becoming home more and more by the day, but when you come from “The Town” all else fails by comparison.
Favorite Color: I’m partial to all forms of blue.
Favorite Author: c’mon! don’t expect me to answer that, there are too many.
I enjoy memories of playing 80’s Atari better than playing any advanced gaming system that exists today.
Hope to be recognized for my paper clip collection. As well as my 27 rejected applications to Ringling Bros. and Barnum & Bailiey Clown college.
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